Onto Lesson One.
I am fearfully and wonderfully made. Psalms 149:13
I think I learned that in Awanas when I was 9. I could recite it, but have I ever believed that? NO. And guess which part of the verse I never even learned?
I praise you because I am fearfully and wonderfully made; your works are wonderful, I know that full well.
I am God's work and His works are wonderful.
I could go on and on about all the things about myself that I don't particularly care for but in my path to self-discovery I realized in feeling these things...and I'm not just talking about in a small fleeing moment while passing the mirror...I was basically BELIEVING that God messed up with me. or that I somehow managed to mess up something God made.
So, what am I doing about it? Some of these things I didn't care for, like being fearful, bitter, anxious and "lazy", aren't just who I am. They're not. I had to learn that. They were side effects my sin. Once I realized my sin and handed it over to the one who made me, I felt a literal weight lifted. Just like that.
Some of those others things...the acne, the exhaustion, the 10 pounds I gained last year from not eating properly...those were also results of my sin. Stress, anxiety, poor health habits caused those features. I may be prone to those things, but in my case, these things can be avoided. With my new diet plan, I am feeling better than ever. And sleep! It's a super thing. I feel sooooo much better. Beautiful even. Maybe not by Hollywood's standards, but by the Lord's. Because I praise Him. My maker. I am fearfully and wonderfully made by Him. My perfect maker. His works are wonderful. That includes me!!! I believe that. Do you?
2 comments:
I have told you...and meant it, that you are one of my favorite people in the world...if not the top...and would be even if you weren't my daughter. I consider you one of the most perfect people I've ever known. None of us are perfect, but you've always been very close to it to me.
This post made me proud...and sad.
I wonder where I failed you because I do have many regrets as a parent over what I 'did to you' and wish for many do-overs.
But I also love that God continues to work in your life and you not only allow for it, but seek it.
I remember one "lightbulb" moment that i had a few years ago in church when the Lord spoke to me through a song. I dont remember the song, but i remember it talking about all of Gods creation being wonderfully made. I remember thinking "exactly! the flowers are so beautiful! the trees so intricate and lovely! the sunrise and sunset... perfection!" and then it was as if the Lord spoke to me and said "yeah. And you! that means you, too".
Youknow, the words used in Genesis are so important and i have to remind myself of them constantly. God spoke all of creation into existence EXCEPT man. Man, he created by hand. From the dust of the earth, like an artist who finely creates his craft with love and care. He didnt just think us or speak us into existence... we are the ONLY creation he took time to make by hand. Theres somtehing really, really special about that :-)
thank you for your transparency, friend.
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